remember what he did, dont miss him.

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

quotes

I've never been so happy to see a photograph of me
then when graced with your company.
You're making a small change to the way
that you wear your heart.
I like it better...I like it... I like it better now

And its easy to believe in your own lies

driving in your car, miss the stop sign, fall in love, just to get knocked out.

when i close my eyes
and wonder where you are
and you wish upon a star
t w o t h o u s a n d m i l e s
doesnt seem s o f a r

it's just past 8 and I'm feeling
y o u n g and r e c k l e s s
the ribbon on my wrist says, "do not open before Christmas."

Drowning myself is a game I play.
Drown myself away,
Drown myself away, away.
Goodbye.
This is getting over you.
This is getting over you.
This is getting over you.
This is getting over you.

paint the walls your favorite shade of blue. i hope all your dreams come true and i will be renewed and i wont waste your time anymore. finally put a lock on our closed door and you will not break through and we'll try to put smiles on our face and see who is the quickest to replace our lost and broken love

Does he kiss your eyelids in the morning when you start to raise your head? And does he sing to you incessantly from the space between your bed and wall?Does he walk around all day at school with his feet inside your shoes,
looking down every few steps to pretend he walks with you?Oh, does he know that place below your neck that is your favorite to be touched?And does he cry through broken sentences, like I love you far too muchYou make me happy when skies are grey...

Shot through the heart &you're to blame
You give love a bad name
I play my part &you play your game
You give love a bad name

It doesnt seem theres hope for me
i let you down
but i wont give in now

not for any amount

Call me in the middle of the night
so drunk you're ready to pass out
telling me you had a great time
except for that hour you blacked out
now you're surprised that i'm pissed
you think i'm acting all tough
well i think you're acting like a bitch
and this time i've had enough
it's not okay
and it's not alright
what have you been doing with those guys all night

call me in the middle of the night
saying that you just got home
lucky i'm even still awake
awake enough to answer the phone
but i knew it would be you
cuz i was hoping that you'd call
hoping you would say that you were sorry
but you don't apologize at all
it's not okay
and it's not alright
what have you been doing with those guys all night
if they're really just friends
why wouldn't you chose me over them
please don't do this again....

I'd rather be here
than anywhere with you

Do you think that this could work out?
Do you think you could come around?
Do you think that this could work out again??
I don't.

Something is ironic in the world and it has to do with the fact that what you intend never comes out like you intend it.

face it dude she ripped out your heart
threw it on the floor
and did the mexican tap dance on it

Try and not take life so seriously
Come on its not like anyone's getting out alive

So show me something we haven't heard yet,
But I'm not convinced and your hopeless songs
won't stick.
But I, I'll sing you something you
won't forget
For the first time I know this is now who I am.

Its better to have 1 real friend than 100 fakes

i always get hungry at night
i just want one bite,
i go downstairs,
and no one cares,
that im hungry

These foolish games are tearing me apart
And your thoughtless words are breaking my heart
You're breaking my heart

I dreamt last night that I had special powers. That if I squeezed my eyes tight, clenched my fists as close as possible, we'd all end up in paradise. I was a super hero, and that was my power.

If every limb were broken,
tires had all worn thin
and my toes are all in pieces.
Do you know
what I would do?
I would play can you drag yourself
200 miles
with just your fingernails?
A little game that I made up.
Do you know that I never ever lose?
There is nothing to
keep me from coming back to you
cause I can picture all the pictures of you
and me on your walls.
What would it take to make you mine forever?
Just your fingernails,
a little game that I made up.
Do you know, that I never ever lose?
Could I cut out my liver,
make a special potion
Two parts my blood,
Three parts my heart.
Yeah, you know that I would do it in a second.
With just my fingernails,
a little game that I made up.
Do you know that I never ever lose?
With just my fingernails,
a little game that I made up.
Do you know that I never ever lose?
Never lose.

I've written you this letter,
got it back return to sender.
But I just can't remember you being quiet like that.
Misunderstand, we're holding hands,
we're at the beach, we're throwing sand.
As the lights just go up all around us,
I can't believe it's over.

him: i want to die
me: why
him: i just do
me: you have to have a reason to die
him: depression. a reason to live, just to have a reason to die. it's all contradictory, but a reason to live, is just another reason to die... why not be bold, say something, not be contradictory, take a side. so, a reason to die, depression, a reason in itself, it has no meaning to me

So, this is odd.
A painful realization
that all has gone wrong
& nobody cares at all.

life doesnt hurt until you think about how much
things have changed, who youve lost along the way
and about how much it was -->all your fault<--

Push me out from the darkness
To a sky that's colored blue
Somewhere someone's finding happiness
While I'm still here so hung up on you

Nothing is real
And I want you to know
That I'm not alright
When you tear open my chest
I'll try not to flinch
Won't make promises
You taught me that.
I'm still losing what's left of my self esteem
And I'm still watching the slow fading of all my daydreams

The hardest things to say are the words that mean the most
So I'll bite my tongue til it bleeds and I doubt you'll even know
The easiest things to fake are feelings to fool someone else
And I've been tricked for so long by you that I spent these last few months in my own hell

I wish
your smile
didn't melt
my heart

the worst feeling in the world isnt being lonely
its being forgotten by someone you cant forget
and to look back at how things used to be knowing
that theyll never be the same and realizing it doesnt
matter to them at all, because they dont miss a thing....

You hug him goodbye like it's nothing, when all you
want to do is hold on forever. But you let go, and
walk away, and cry all the way home because you know
it will never be the same again. Because, try as you
might - you can't make someone love you again.
Sometimes you have to let them be free, and letting
go -- that's when love hurts most of all

But gorgeous is an understatement. More like you're startled everytime you see him because you notice something new, in a 'Where's Waldo' sort of way. More like you can't stop writing third grade run on sentences because you can't even remotely begin to describe something, someone, so inherently amazing. More like you're afraid that if you stare at him too long, you'll prove your parents right that, yes, your face will get stuck that way..but you don't mind.

So tonight as I walk
The moon makes faces at the trees
It's so nice to make fun of everything that I lost,
And I miss, and I love but never had

Tonight I'm gonna take a test to grow up
So I'm sorry for the things I've done to everyone
It's not your face I can't tell
But I try to be this way
It's my own

She Said,
"It Looks As If You've Lost Your Best Friend."
And I Told Her,
"I've Definatly Lost Something Close To Me"
'Cuz I Can Taste The Failure On My Lips
You Know I'd Love To Just Go Back And Feel The World..

Stare Straight At The Wall,
Until TheTears Form.
There's Something About The Night.
And It Gets ME Everytime.
Is It Already Too Late To Dream?

Complete and total adoration,
My gift to you, my heart was yours.
In ten weeks you shaped it,
In one night you murdered it.
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet,
That first step that you took was the worst.
Since then you've walked a thousand miles in solace and short remark,
And I still have these memories,
But we'll never see what we could have been.
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember. cause that's all you can do.
We'll never make another memory,
We'll never make another memory.
I wish I'd have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today.
This time I thought things were real.
You said they were.
What happened?
You were a priority,
Was I an option?
I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
you knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart,
I'm sorry that wasn't enough.
So, we'll go our own ways,
And hopefully you'll remember the things I've told you,
Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said was in sincerity.
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this,
But I guess I've learned from it.
But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don't consider this a mistake,
I just wish the story didn't end this way,
Cause I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?

I confess, I'm just messed up
dropping "I'm sorrys¡± like you're still around
And I know you dressed up
said ¡°hey kid you'll never live this down¡±

And you're just the girl all the boys want to dance with
And I'm just the boy who's had too many chances

I'm sleeping on your folk's porch again, dreaming
She said, she said, she said, "Why don't you just drop dead?"

Take a look at me now
I'll just be standing here
And you coming back to me
Is against the odds
And that's a chance I've gotta face

We All Have Our Simple Ways Of Killing Ourselves.
This Is Yours, ~~Denying~~ It All By Covering It Up.
You Were Never The Best At Smiling.
So Stay Up All Night.
Just To Say You Are Tired.

I Saw The Old Boy Today.
I Hung Out With Him.
He's Changed.
And It's Extremely Depressing.

For months you've been away
You're here a couple days
I've got all of the time in the world
To do with what we please
If it were up to me
We'd have all of the time in the world
Just stay right where I can see you
When you go away I get so low
Like temperatures when they're at their coldest
When you go away I get so lonely
And I'm stranded by the side of the bed

Let's destroy each other cause we're too cool for love lines, soft kisses over cheap wine. smoke me baby like your last cigarette whisper to me, say "you'll never forget" could you break my heart a little more?
shove my body up against yours, and kiss me like you mean it?

I pretend I'm doing all I can and hope someday
you'll find it in your heart
to understand why I'm not around
and forgive me for not
being in your life.

I remember waiting for you to come.
I remember waiting for you to call.
Remember waiting there to find nothing at all.

im trying to believe in you
this world sold its faith for parking lots and drunk sincerity
please dont forget who you really are cuz nothing really matters when were gone
ull be saddended to know the train tacks you walked as a young boy
are now nothing but a graveayrd

Here in this diary,
I write you visions of my summer.
It was the best I ever had.
There were choruses and sing-alongs,
and not a spoken feeling.
I'm knowing that right now is all that matters.
All the nights we stayed up talking
and listening to 80's songs;
quoting lines from all those movies that we love.
It still brings a smile to my face.

Say goodnight, not goodbye
You will never leave my heart behind
Like the path, of a star
I'll be anywhere you are

It was like i could look in her eyes, and then in someone elses who had the exact same color eyes, and hers would be so much more bueatiful. i could see myself in hers. my future. i thought. its not like we even dated, but i thought she loved me. but its to late now, nothing she can do can could show me she loves me. its to late for that now

people are gonna dissapoint you. i get that... i kind of expect that, but i dont know, what if you wake up one day and realize that you're the dissapointment?

want you here.
so close that i can count your freckles,
so close so that they blur together...

I heard about your accident and I'm sorry you went down that way. Aimed straight for the heart and cut real deep. You're still bleeding, but through your eyes. And the only light to grace your face is a reflection off your tears--its a shame. You cry like a child; scared to go to sleep alone. Those dark, cold walls hold in the liquor you cant keep down. How long is this gunna last? How long are you gunna live like this?

what they call love is a risk, cause you will always get hit out of nowhere by some wave and end up on your own.

It broke my heart, it felt so good to see you.

your bitter goodbye is ringing through this quiet night,
this idle hour just wont pass
i've never missed you this much, never thought i would,
didn't think you'd feel so far away
your summer perfume is still blowing through this hallway,
autumn's amber red shadows dance
i miss our midnight rides on highway 18, 18 is gone

so go past the lights and all the excuses
you could have left "sincerely yours"
don't you think it's obvious that i want to say more?
cause anything too daring to say to you,
will be said in this letter, then burned away
so you never realize, i'm here

i'm thinking of your vague reply
so i can understand
why we put this at rest
why we forget to
say that we were leaving
say that we were sorry
the past remains unspoken
as this vacant night is dying
but i still miss your summer perfume
this cold air brings such a distance to us
such a painful distance
i'm still waiting for you to say you hate me now
so i don't have to hold on to this burning heart
this burning heart is getting old
while sitting on this cold kitchen floor,
head down to hide the tears,
i've finally realized that you were never meant for me

Had a bad day, dont talk to me
gonna ride this out
My little black heart breaks apart
with your big mouth

And Im sick of my sickness
Don't touch me youll get this
I'm useless lazy perverted
and you hate me

You cant save me
You cant change me
Well Im waiting for my wakeup call
And everything everything's my fault

Went to the doctor
and I asked her to make this stop
Got medication a new addiction
Fucking thanks a lot

I had to relapse Im bad at rehabs
It ruins everything
So point your finger at the singer
He's in the pharmacy

the weather is perfect
the day that you die.

hate you but i love you
i cant stop thinking of you
it's true - im stuck on you ¢¾

wind strong in my face, i'm still staggering throug
i'm closer to the ground than i will ever get to you

dirt deep beneath my fingernails, i'm gripping to the floor

i'm searching through the world, always looking for something more\

No. I bet you don't know what really makes her laugh. or even the difference between when shes faking it, or truly being sincere. I bet you don't know that her favorite popicle flavor is orange. or the fact that she loves the smell of christmas. i bet you don't know how much she laughs everyday. and how much she truly enjoys being happy. i bet you don't know how ticklish she is on her sides. and how it drives her crazy when you look into her eyes. i bet you don't know how she loves being in the city, cause for those few hours, she feels independent and shes treated more like an adult. i bet you don't know how beautiful she really is, and how hard it is for her to see the people he loves hurting...

You know... All of our lives we have been around "love." You grow with parents and family who all gerenally love one another along with watching every Disney movie whose plot is never official unless there is a love story. We see Cinderella with her Prince Charming and say to ourselves "When I'm older I want to be just as beautiful as her and have my very own Prince Charming." Later on down the road in life you look back at Cinderella and somehow you still want to be like her. Love is no longer something that comes to you. Instead it's always you searching for it. Throughout your Junior and Senior High School years all you want is a boyfriend. Then you ask yourself..."Why exactly is it that I want this boyfriend?" Is it because you have a connection with him and can carry on conversations until three a.m.? It is because you like the way he looks walking down the hall in his blue jeans? Or is it because when he looks at you your eyes can't bare to look at him back because the butterflies jumping in your stomache make it impossible... Perhaps it could be because you were brought up to know you were supposed to have one. People have connections with significant others all the time but they are rarely ever "love." But what is exactly love anyway? Some say you see fireworks. But love...Love is a personal thing. Not everyone in this world is going to have the same view on it or believe it when it comes. Some may infact have love smack them right in the face and never realize it was existing. But once your opinion if a Prince Charming comes knocking at your door I hope you accept. Love...
love comes when you least expect it. Charish it and don't let it go. You only have one true chance. Grasp it tight. ¢¾ You might regret it.

Couldn't you just laugh until you choke?
I wish you would.
So your face could match your eyes.
Cold and blue and lifeless.
How did I ever fall for you?

i'm on fire
and now i think i'm ready to bust a move
check it out i'm rocking steady
betty won't stop listening to modern rock
how she hates to be alone
i try to compensate her lack of love with coffee cake
ice cream and a bottle of ten dollar wine
she says "hey. i rock the haro sport
i rock the cowgirl blues, i rock too fast for love
i'm footloose in my velcro shoes.
what's up with wil and grace?
i don't get drum and bass,
the future freaks me out"

But, my god, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles...

and its safe to say I won't forget your face
but I can honestly say I won't forgive you

Through all the fights and all the pain,
there will always be one thing that remains the same...

My Eyes Have Stopped Searching
Because I Can Honestly Say My Heart
Has Found Exactly What Its Been Looking For

...If you love me, if you are the only star in the night
You've got to believe it'll be alright in the end.

No one can make me cry, make me laugh
Make me smile or drive me mad, like she does
It's like a curse that is the cure
Better or worse, one thing's for sure
It's real love
And i don't know what i'd do if i lost you!

Oh how you laughed
.At my complete lack of grace .
But I could not recall .
. A more perfect fall
Cause when I looked up into your eyes .
. It didn't hurt at all.

at cavanaugh park,
we use to get high,
watch the teams as they fought,
they loved my friend Adam
but he always got caught.
Man, that kid made fucking up look cool
Aren't we all so cool. No.

guess that it is typical
to cling to memories you'll never get back again
and to sort through old photographs of a summer long ago

I heard your voice again today, I¡¯m scarred by all the lies that were once promises you¡¯d made. I lie in bed awake at night and wonder what went wrong ¡¦ or even more, what went right.

Don't you just hate that? Uncomfortable silences. Why do we feel it's necessary to yak about bull in order to be comfortable? That's when you know you've found somebody really special, when you can just shutthe heck up for a minute and comfortably share a silence.said

ttention bidders, it's lot 45.
He's got a decent voice,
He's got that crooked smile.
Hold on, you haven't heard the best yet.
He writes good storylines,
He's got those honest eyes.
So take him home for just $9.95.

I knew you'd never stay, right from the start.

We'll run away together
We'll spend some time forever
We'll never feel bad anymore

"and she kissed me. it was the kind of kiss that i could never tell my friends about out loud. it was the kind of kiss that made me konw that i was never so happy in my whole life."

"I dont want to start thinking again. not like i have this last week. I cant think again. Not ever again. i dont know if you've ever felt like that. that you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. or just not exist. or just not be aware that you do exist. or something like that. i think wanting that is very morbid, but i want it when i get like this. thats why im trying not to think. i just want it all to stop spinning."

"i just wish that God or my parents or my sister or someone would just tell me what's wrong with me. just tell me how to be different in a way that makes sense. to make this all go away. and disappear. I know that's wrong because it's my responsibility, and i know that things get worse before they get better...but this is a worse that feels too big."

" 'i would die for you. but i wont live for you' .. something like that. i think the idea is that every person has to live for his or her own life and then make the choice to share it with other people. maybe thats what makes people "participate". I[m not really certain. because i dont know if i would mind living for same for a while."

"i think if i ever have kids, and they are upset, i wont tell them that people are starving in china or anything like that because it wouldnt change the fact that they were upset. and even if somebody else has it much worse, that doesnt really change the fact that you have what you have. good and bad."

And your favorite song comes on the radio
So I turn up and I'm belting out the words
And I'm rocking out all by myself
Yeah I'm rocking out just thinking about you

And its everything that makes me think of you
And that makes me smile.

as fruit drops, flesh it sags
everything will fall/right into place
when we die some sink and some lay
but at least i don¡¯t see you float away
and all the spilt milk, sex, and weight
it all will fall, fall right into place

wanna die like jim morrison... a fucking rock star

I'm an angel with broken wings,
Who's poisoning the night
With love, from me to you
I'm having an episode,
Do you want a small bit part?
I think you might, i hope you do

Oh baby go so slowly
Nowhere, nothing, quiet softly

As we lay there quiet
I was reminded of all the reasons why I lust you
Your smile,
and the way it teased at me seductively
Your laugh,
and the way it tempted me
Your eyes,
and the way they seem to hypnotize me

As we sat there silent
I was reminded of all the reasons why I love you
Your smile,
and the way it brings such life into me
Your laugh,
and the way it makes everything okay
Your eyes,
and the way them seems to read my thoughts

As we stand here now
I am reminded of all the reasons why I hate you
Your smile,
and the way it confuses me
Your laugh,
and the way it seems to mock me
Your eyes,
and the way they can look into mine and not feel a thing

Reasons Why I Love You

Remember in seventh grade, when all the girls would make lists of reasons why they loved their crushes. And they would compete to see who's list was longer, because that's what thirteen year old girls do. Well, I'm not thirteen anymore, but I think you deserve to know. So here's a list of reasons why I love you.

1. You have the most beautiful green eyes I've ever seen. Not grass green, and not seafoam green. I really can't explain the color green they are. If they were to make a Crayola crayon of the color of your eyes, I think they would have to call "Zack's Eyes Green" because nothing else compares. But I don't think Crayola could capture the hue of your eyes too well, because there's more than color there. There's they way your eyes always find their way into mine during one of our many miniature dialogues, and the way that I can't hold that stare and blush and turn away. I just don't think Crayola has mastered that technique in their crayon-ing yet. Maybe one day they will, but until then "Zack's Eyes Green" is a color which I will keep all to myself.

2. You have the most wonderful laugh. It's that kind of laugh that people only have when they are nervous about something. Like how a girl giggles when she's talking to the cute boy in math class, or how the little boy in the school play laughs, and shyly looks to his mother beaming in the audience when he misses his only line. It's the kind of laugh that makes people wonder what you're hiding, and more than anything makes them want to find it, but you won't let them. It's the kind of laugh that protects you from everything outside. I hope it will let me through.

3. You have the most perfect smile. My favorite smile is the "I'm so glad to see you" version. That's the one on your face when I walk over to your table at lunch, or interrupt that very important calculus assignment you're working on. However, I can't say I don't enjoy your "I'm such a flirt" smile. You know, the one you make when we gamble with teasing lines about how much we want each other. And you have so many more, but the one I'd really like to see is the "I love her" smile, because I don't think you even knew you had one.

want to miss you..

but i cant..

it just bring tears to my eyes..
when i think about what you did..
and they way you hurt me..

secretes will be forever..

but i cant last..my heart is beating for you now..

i want to miss you..

but i cant ...

Tell me do you think it¡¯d be all right
If I could just crash here tonight
You can see I¡¯m in no shape for driving
And anyway I¡¯ve got no place to go
And you know it might not be that bad
You were the best I¡¯d ever had
If I hadn¡¯t blown the whole thing years ago
I might not be alone

Simply put, I'm satisfied just to hear you speak and holding onto what you said last time here with me. I remember listening to passin cars on our backs starin at the stars. I survive by these memories, these memories of you. So I'll press my face against the pane of the window as I watch you drive away. The glass is still stained in my bedroom where you wrote "i love you" with your lipstick and once again i'm left here fighting tears away.

She knows exactly what she's worth
She knows exactly what she's worth to me

i'm a person just like you
but i've got better things to do
than sit around and fuck my head
hang out with the living dead
snort white shit up my nose
pass out at the shows
i don't even think about speed
that's something i just don't need

I'VE GOT THE STRAIGHT EDGE

i'm a person just like you
but i've got better things to do
than sit around and smoke dope
cause i know i can cope
laugh at the thought of eating ludes
laugh at the thought of sniffing glue
always gonna keep in touch
never want to use a crutch

I'VE GOT THE STRAIGHT EDGE

i ~~thought~~ we'd be together forever but it seems i was
wrong and everythings falling apart. think of what you
done. think think of all weve been through. i hope everytime
he she breaks your heart, you think of me and how i was to
you. everythings falling apart..one day youll see juss how good i was

i miss the way you make me feel
so cold and alone, so cold and alone
i miss the way you make me wait
by the telephone to tell you i'm trying to get by
learning how to tie my own noose
because you win and i lose
it's been so hard but you've been so smooth

sometimes i choke on all the false love that infects me.

It's not that I don't trust you
well I just know what you've been up too
and well this dial tone is agreeing with everything I've had in mind.
and you've got your high as a kite tricks in the bag.

so as *you eyes move past *her shoulder
and your shades start moving in the same direction
don't worry I, well I won't say a thing.
and you can't blame a *boy for stickin' to what *he knows

Write me off, give up on me
cause darling what did you expect?
I'm just off a lost cause
a long shot, don't even take this bet

I couldn't call you if I wanted
my fingers couldn't work if they tried
they're so sore from keeping crossed
and tracing over cuts on my worthless arms
if I said "I hated the feeling" it would be a lie

.you're so far you'll forget about me
but i'll wait; i could never leave those
beautiful eyes ..... but please don't
leave me now, please don't leave...

if i gave you pretty enough words could you paint a picture of us that works
an emphasis on function, rather than design

regret's how i spell your name
in light of what you have done
how can u not feel the same?
my love will fade with the sun
as days go by ; shed a tear.
i hate your face more than life
i'll fake a smile for you my dear
... so turn away.

One day you're flying
The next day you're falling to pieces
I can't keep putting you back together
On stumbled foot steps
Together we fall on our faces
I hope that we can make it through this

Yeah so is this what I've been waiting for
Please tell me there's something more
This is not what I wanted
So is this what I've been waiting for
It's not like I imagined it
No i'ts not what I wanted

If I fall and crumble
Would you help me to pick up the pieces?
I wish that I knew you were right behind me
We're running in circles
I'm growing tired and jaded
I don't know if we can make it through this

faded away like the color in a
blue sky at the end of the day,
night falls ; and the search
begins for something better
than this

And we hung like space stations and rocketships
And dreamed like we were things of the sky
We dressed like kings and queens and lovers
And shouted out into the night "we're never gonna die"
And I've waited here for hours, hoping that you'd call
And my dialing finger's tired, and your machine is full
And I've taken 18 showers just to pass the time
And that fucking phone just rang, but it wasn't you on the line.
(And you don't seem to mind)

And I know you never meant to do everything you put me through. It¡¯s okay, I forgive you.

i'll be your marilynmonroe
&you can be my johnfkennedy
oh, they'll say it's a SCANDAL
(justlikeus); &sweetheart, you know it is

i see the silhouettes hide
behind the shadows we once knew
lies behind your silver breath
of a troubled mind that never grew

you told me i was perfect, that nothing would you change.

i wanna be invisible,
so that i feel no pain
i wanna be indestructable,
so i never feel this way again

I wanna be a teenage Superman
doing things that no one can

when no one else is here,
you know i am.
we've been through the good, the bad, and the ugly
you've seen me laugh, seen my cry
you know the thoughts that make up my very existance.
and yet, somehow
such distance has come between us
tearing apart my soul
and my heart.

what happened?
i dont know why you left
why that one summer changed us..
changed us both..
you decided to be popular.
be taken in by the very people we had spent so much of our lives plotting against
and now, here i am.
with friends, but still so alone.

sure, we're still friendly
you dont hate me,
and i dont hate you.
i dont think i could ever hate you.
no matter what you did, i still miss those late night talks
when we would watch a movie, and talk all night.
my mom would come down and yell at us to go to sleep
and we would get quiet, for a little while
and soon, we'd forget, and the cycle would repeat itself.

i know that one year is a lot to make up..
..a lot of lost time
and i dont think we can do it.
but i hope you know, still
that no matter what, you'll be one of my best friends.
even if we dont talk ever again
you'll have been with me that one, awful year of my life
when i went through so much,
and you were the one friend by my side the whole time.
so even if we talk tomorrow
or if we never talk again.
you'll always have that place in my heart.

Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby. Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real. Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you, why'd you turn away? Here's what I have to say; I was left to cry there -waiting outside there - grinning with a lost stare - That's when I decided.. why should I care? Cause you weren't there, when I was scared, I was so alone. You, you need to listen. I'm starting to trip,
I'm losing my grip and I'm in this thing alone.. Am I just some chick you place beside you, to take somebody's place? When you turn around can you recognize my face.. you used to love me, you used to hug me, But that wasn't the case. Everything wasn't ok. I was left to cry there - waiting outside there - grinning with a lost stare - That's when I decided..

why should i care?

she has bite marks on her tongue from all the things she never said

im willing to find out what impossible means

and everytime i scratch my nails
down someone else's back
i hope you feel it
i hope you feel it

does she know how you told me
you'd hold me until you died
till ya died
but you're still alive

I Guess I Should've Known.. It Was Too Good To Be True

did i miss your call again?
no, you never called.
it was the thought inside my head."

you and me we were alwayse funny in a car crash sort of way...
i alwayse knew id end up dead to you..

She's gorgeous, but gorgeous is an understatement. More like you're startled every time you see her because you notice something new in a "Where's Waldo" sort of way. More like you can't stop writing third grade run-on sentences because you can't remotely begin to describe something ... someone ... so inherently amazing. But you're a writer. You can describe anything. That's what you do: pictures to words, events to words, words to even better words. But nothing seems right. More like you're afraid that if you stare at her for too long, you'll prove your parents right: that yes, your face will stick that way. But you wouldn't mind.

(friends name)

The hourglass takes its time when you are gone,
Making each minute twice as long.
And without you I can not laugh,
Because it's just not right when you're not here.

With you I find new ways to look at things,
Because smiles aren't everything.
You helped me shed my tears,
and meatamorphisize into something better.

Words could never describe how I feel about you,
And a hug just won't do.
If i could grasp life within my hands like sand,
Maybe then, I'd come close to showing how much I love you.

Dearest friend of mine, you are so much more then a person to be with.
You are a part of me.

-me
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I played this to my best friend its kind of "our" song but the friendship you have maybe this might have the same effect with you.
"I'm your Angel" R.Kelly feat. Celine Dion

No mountain's too high for you to climb
All you have to do is have some climbing faith, oh yeah
No river's too wide for you to make it across
All you have to do is believe it when you pray

And then you will see the morning will come
And every day will be bright as the sun
All of your fears cast them on me
I just want you to see

I'll be your cloud up in the sky
I'll be your shoulder when you cry
I hear your voices when you call me
I am your angel

And when all hope is gone, I'm here
No matter how far you are, I'm near
It makes no difference who you are
I am your angel
I'm your angel

I saw your teardrops and I heard you cry
All you need is time
Seek me and you shall find
You have everything and you're still lonely
It don't have to be this way
Let me show you a better day

And then you will see the morning will come
And all of your days will be bright as the sun
So all of your fears just cast them on me
How can I make you see?

And when it's time to face the storm
I'll be right by your side
Grace will keep us safe and warm
And I know we will survive
And when it seems as if your end is drawing near
(The end is drawing near)
Don't you dare give up the fight
(Oh no)
Just put your trust beyond the skies

Oh and all these seeds will grow anyway
Even though the outcome we cannot say
So youl always have your time to shine
Even in the winter of your darkest hour

I dont wanna see you sad, and i know those girls cant make you happy like i did

we take each others hands and fight the dark..
so you know your never alone...

and i hate how you broke my heart with that fucking smile i can't resist on your face

You can drink away all memories of me. of almost having me. you had me all along you just dont' know it. I hope when your with all those girls who mean nothing to me, that your happy. cause i hate seeing you so sad. i hate knowing it was my fault. you had me all along,you just didnt know it.

she tripped on concrete. scraped her knees, hand and feet. the moon looked down and said "look at you now. won't you look at you now?" then you picked yourself up the ground and made a call. it was busy. it's always busy. it's never busy what's the meaning of a painted sky? your brown eyes gleaming every single time it falls apart. it falls apart. when you smile your cheeks blush one-thousand times more than mine do. i'll wish one more time on you. i'll wish eleven more times than you can afford. and it held more meaning, than the painted sky. the red blood on your hands drew the bluest sky.

i remember when the days were long & the nights when the living room was on the lawn. constant quarreling, the childish fits, & our clothes in a pile on the ottoman. all the slander and double-speak were only foolish attempts to show you did not mean anything but the blatant proof was your lips touching mine in the photobooth.

& as the summer's ending, the cool air will put your hard heart away. you were so condescending.. & this is all that's left: scraping paper to document. ive packed a change of clothes and it's time to move on.

cup your mouth to compress the sound, skinny dipping with the kids from a nearby town. & everything that i said was true as the flashes blinded us in the photobooth. well, i lost track, and then those words were said. you took the wheel and you steered us into my bed. soon we woke & i walked you home & it was pretty clear that it was hardly love.

& as the summer's ending, the cool air will rush your hard heart away. you were so condescending as the alcohol drained the days.

& as the summer's ending, the cool air will rush your hard heart away. you were so condescending & this is all that's left: the empty bottles, spent cigarettes. so pack a change of clothes, cause it's time to move on.

i cant see the point of patient love when everyone just wants to get fucked.

so suck your so called pity down. hey, thats not so bad is it? so take your cold, cold heart & drown and dont forget to take deep breathes.

so dont explain cause i know exactly what your going to say. big words, recycled phrases, & the bittersweet taste of other *girls on your lips. so now just sit here and talk about how you wanted it all..

do you miss *me looking up from the floor at *your face on a stage in a crowded room? well its not the same. i bet youre still a sucker for those famous faces. downtown, looking down, looking over the crowd, i hope youre out there, look at me now. well its not the same. just look at how *youve changed.

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I love how soft you touch my skin
Like you're touching the wings of a butterfly
I wish we could just lock ourselves in a room
Where there was no such thing as time
I've never let anyone get this close
I've always been afraid
But you break down every wall and yet I feel so safe
Every part of who I am
Is so in love 'cause what I have is

Beautiful...

love the way you stand in my way
You won't move 'til you get a kiss
And how you tell me that my name
Tastes so sweet on your lips
I love the way you hold me with your eyes
Hold me so tight that I can't move
It's like everything I've ever known is a lie
And your the simple truth
Is it a dream or is it real
All I know is you make me feel so

Beautiful ..

Out on the road
The poison has begun to settle in
She's going home
But wishes she could disappear again
She starts to swerve
The white line means nothing to her
She picks up her poison bottle
Heavy head, heavy eyes, will she make it home?

She drinks away her pain
As she takes your life into her hands
Her memories remain
As she takes your life into her hands

I am such a sucker
And I'm always the last to know
My insides are copper
And I'd kill to make them gold

You can thank your lucky stars
That everything I wish for will never come true

For the lack of better words to say
All I said was "goodnight"
once again, in self defense
I won't sleep a wink

if it was up to me i'd never have to miss you. it's for the better in the bitter end. i guess you'd know the best

We are pretty when we are faking. && I am such a liar when I smile.

I'm not like them..I cant be what you need. I can't be perfect. And I'm hoping this isn't real. Someone, wake me up. Tell me this isn't happening. Convince me it's all a bad dream. I dont want to wake up without you.. Look into my eyes ; look at what you've done. A bruised little girl is what this feels like. Not good enough to stand by your side. Not good enough to hold your hand.. Won't you wake me up? Or let me sleep forever in this prision? I'd rather suffer from apathy than feel the stab of this rose's beautiful thorns, but I guess we all make mistakes. But this one's fatal. I'm slipping away into this darkness. Wont you wake me up? This is all a bad dream, a terrible nightmare I've created out of dim lights. The lights that barely reach the walls that seperate our bedrooms. You've left me for better, but you're only getting yourself into worse. They can't scream your name like I can. STOP WALKING AWAY. WON'T YOU WAKE ME UP?

i know you're going crazy
but happy is all that you make me
and now things are gonna get better baby
i know everything went wrong, ok
but now its time to get some better days

Do you wish upon stars for your love that's so far? With tears in your eyes, do you sing her name to the sky with hope your voice will reach her as a lullaby? 800 miles and a different time zone were two things we've never wanted, but we can't change what's been done. No, we've gotta throw this out like trash and hide the smell that's stuck on the walls. We've gotta cover up the crime scene with cheap make-up. It'll fade soon, but we'll still have each other.

I don't hate your guts. I do however, hate your lack of heart.

I had a beautiful, beautiful time
The drives and the talks were amazing
The kind of friend I thought I'd never find
I had a beautiful, beautiful time
You have a beautiful, beautiful smile
The way it curls and collapses on your lips
When you touch me I shake like a child
It's late, I'm afraid you might leave
'Cause sometimes it seems like you still don't believe me
There's nothing I can do to concentrate
It's so distracting, always thinking of you
So I expose and explain and I meant everything I said
And it's moments like this that repeat and replay in my head
When I'm laying in bed
It's a beautiful, beautiful time
As you laugh and roll onto your stomach
The carpet embraces your design
My heart pounds as I lay by your side
And I find that I am unable to hide all these feelings that flow
In this basement, and in this dim light, you look so beautiful
I'm unsure and unclear with the words that I say
I'm happy when you're near and I wish that forever could stay
Just like today
You have beautiful, beautiful eyes
So bright and alive and enchanting
I want to be with you all of the time
It's hopeless but I have to try

and when you feel the pain,
im wishing i could stay,
how can i say i love you back,
you never made me happy.

i can't see the point of patient love
when everyone just wants to get fucked

i wake up somedays and I think I¡¯m dead
then you come and tell me
I¡¯m fucked in the head
Don¡¯t you think I know that already
And it doesn¡¯t help me to hear you say it

See you don¡¯t get it
¡®cause you¡¯re not the one
that has to live with it

you¡¯re always begging me to share
what¡¯s on my mind
but when I finally do open up to you
you freak out and tell me
I should be on medication
For what I do
Well fuck you too

See you just don¡¯t get it
¡®cause you¡¯re not the one
that has to live with it

the thing is
I wake up somedays and I think I¡¯m dead
Then you come and tell me
I¡¯m fucked in the head
Well fuck you too
It¡¯s so great to have awesome friends like you

standing on the edge of morning, scent of sex and new found glory playing as she's pulling back her hair. she drives away, she's feeling worthless, used again but nothing's different. she'd stay the night, but knows he doesn't care.
home by three. deafening quiet. the porch light's off (yes, they forgot it.) she'd cry herself to sleep, but she don't dare. and she wants to be a model. she wants to hear she's beautiful

i can finally walk past you
with a smile on my face,
with my head up and my eyes open.
the massive hickey on your nec

Posted at 06:45 pm by ThruBeinC00L
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I've never been so happy to see a photograph of me then when graced with your company. You're making a small change to the way that you wear your heart. I like it better...I like it... I like it better now

And its easy to believe in your own lies

It doesnt seem theres hope for me i let you down but i wont give in now

not for any amount

Do you think that this could work out? Do you think you could come around? Do you think that this could work out again?? I don't.